Then I lost control of my emotions for a couple years. I couldn't feel anything. I felt all the wrong things. I didn't cry for a year. I cried painful tears because I needed to feel something. It wasn't fun. But I learned through it.
Now I feel I've evened out a bit...with a bent towards the emotional side. I still struggle with feeling like too many emotions being a sign of weakness, or feeling like when someone else is crying they're expecting me to cry and that makes me mad. But I also get a tear in my eye and a frog in my throat at the weirdest little things. I'm learning that when something makes me emotional, it's my brain/soul/spirit's way of recognizing and appreciating beauty or brokenness to a depth that I didn't know I had.
But seriously, these things...?!?
- Watching a 6 year old girl breakdance
- Reading about a mother who was having a hard time with her kids and her friends helped her out
- The part in Sherlock when Watson tries to save him
- An article in the newspaper about a kid who won a spelling bee
- An article in the newspaper about a kid who's friends with another
- Kids who are friends with each other
- Kids who are friends with animals
- Commercials where a dad is bonding with a kid (this one usually gets a full on sob)
- When one of the married girls in my small group talks about how much they love their husband
- When I see someone with a visible disability who is dating/in-love/married
Youtube, commercials,newspapers, public places...they're emotional landmines. But I'm not mad.