Sudden, I know.
Colin and I have been dreaming about the West Coast this past month. The low housing market, the ocean, the culture, the forests...I even have two trips planned in the next 5 months to different parts of that rugged coastline. Our dreaming and planning has naturally been growing a seed of boredom with our current environment. I want REAL forests and BIG water!
So, we went out to Revelstoke for Easter and that was the end of it. They had real forests and big water AND warmer weather than we currently were having in Calgary so I slumped into a 48 hour Alberta-induced depression.
Thankfully, I've been able to become just self-aware enough to realize when I'm being a melodramatic, discontent, impatient little kid. I know I can't live like this for 2 years or 5 years or forever until we move somewhere that has all those things I really like. So for a little bit, I'll have to try extra hard to like where I am again until it is easy once more.
This evening was a bit of that. A bit of enjoying the moment. Feeling beauty in a breath. Soaking in the simple aliveness of a dim light and an open window, the quiet rush of distant cars, the lone call of a jay, my hunny playing guitar in the other room... I love when these moments come. They are the hardest to explain and they are the most beautiful. They fill my heart up, and make it easy to love where I am again, if only for this moment.
"See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm..."