My blue eyed, hand eating, super drooling, nap mastering, ever growing, morning loving baby is four months old!
I still stare at her and think, "How is this my life now? How is she mine?". I still wonder if she grew over night. I still think she's the cutest kid on the block. I still hope that *this* night will be the one she sleeps through. I still ain't mad that it hasn't happened yet...not mad, just disappointed... ;)
Before Sloane was born I Googled "How to trust your 'mother's instinct'" which is definitely an oxymoron and gave me no results. Fortunately the trust does come, slowly, in bits. I don't need to google something five times. I can Google it once and be okay with the inconclusiveness. I can assume it's teething and in three months when she finally gets a tooth I will stand by my assumption. I can celebrate little things, like when she's upset and I guess the one out of four possible culprits correctly on the first guess. All that to say, we don't need to be dependant on technology to be okay at life (Google: "how to stop Googling things"), and this is freeing. This is a no brainer for generations before us, but I feel as though our generation and those after us are shackled to the internet in a way that we can't make moves or have beliefs without it. We can try things and make mistakes and go with our gut and try other things and sometimes be wrong and often be right. The internet is a wonderful tool that I am thankful for, but it is not the be all end all.
And what about Miss Sloane? She is learning to trust her baby instinct by rolling over (when she feels like it), gnawing on everything she can get her gums on, drinking lots of milk, watching mom and dad eat and drink, and chatting up a storm in the mornings (and sometimes in the middle of the night...). Mom keeps giving her food to try because she thinks it's fun, but Sloane has made it clear that she'd rather eat her bib than real food.
She is not dependant on technology but she is VERY interested in it and she probably would be dependant on it if she could get her hands on it. If she's especially whiny and mom's especially tired, she gets to watch Bob's Burgers!
We are going on our first family vacations this month and I can't wait to do it all with her! It will be harder, but also much cuter. Somehow that balances everything out, and then some.